my last weekend before i go part 2!!!!

Ok so after having friday night with Emily and soph, i went to my mums house and spent some time with her! and her furry friends!!! CATS!!!!!!! blessed beloved things!!! so let me introduce you to Benson!!!! or i call him beloved!!!!!! cause he is really beloved!!!! he is so beautiful and i wiiiiiiiish i could take him to America with me!!!!!

both my parents all up have 4 cats!!! and beloved benson is my favourite!!! but please do not tell dads cats that!!! its hard to choose a fav from all these cats!!! well i guess all the cats have different personalities that mean different things to me, i guess this beloved sweet cat has a "innocence" to him!! no matter what he does he'll never get in trouble cause he's too cute!!!

ANYWAYS!!! so enough of all this cat business, YA spent time with mum and went SHOPPING!!! bought some last minute things i need and guess what??? i got tops with cute sayings on and they are scatch and sniff tops!!!!! like scratch the top and smell a strawberry sunday or a choc milkshake!!!!!

FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!!!

i am scared to wash them cause i wanna smell like stawberry sundaes or choc milkshakes HEHEHEHE.... but i thought that was cool and fun!!! uuummm i got my friends who i am staying with overseas some aussie pressies! including caramellow koalas!!! buuuuut they might be gone before they get there HEHEHE but i'll try to use self control lol.

So it was so cool to go out and finish off my last bit of packing and getting my trip all sorted!!! It still hasn't hit me that i am going over seas in like a few days!!! but i think when the morning comes when i leave!!! IT WILL BE AWESOME!!!!

so sunday will involve church soccer watching! annnnnnd packing still! and counting down the hours!!!

so stay tuned!!!

the weekend before i leave!!!

YAY!!!! its been the most coolest weekend in a while! And its not even finished! But even the last 2 days, friday and saturday its been so much fuuuuuuuun!!!!!!!!!!

On friday night i caught up with a really beautiful friend Emily! EMILY!!!! you're famous cause you're mentioned on my blog HAHAHA!!! i know u are reading this laughing!!!

and Little soph! Sophie HEEEEEELLLLLLOOOOOOOOO! Remember soph to keep up to date with all the hannah montanta action while i am away!! ;)

So back to emily to sophie and me having dinner at this world class most popular family resturant!!!! MACCAS!!! hehehe mcdonalds!! i wouldn't have it any other way!!! HAHA.... it was so much!!!! I had great company with emily and soph!!! some photos above of my and soph in crazy funny photos!! yeah i cant really explain the randomness but it was fuuuuuuuuun!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i have the next part of my weekend part 2 on the next blog with more photos!!!!

So i only have 6 days left!!!! Its been really hecktik the last few days! exchanging moneys and looking for good deals on overseas debit/atm cards that pays less fee's and all that! But with a load of stress taken off i am gladly happy to say all the money side of things is all ready and done and so is everything else! All i have to do is pack! which is a little exciting! summer and winter stuff i need to pack, which i'm worried will get a little bulky in my bag but thats least of my worries! well i don't really have any worries when it comes to my trip away only that i will miss out on seeing bears (kodiak bears) in the wild! But if i pray this prayer... come lord jesus be my guest and let these cuddly bears to me be blessed!! AMEN!! now i would undoubtly will see them! hehehehe....

so let me just explain the video above, my friend has been wanting me to post some vids i have done in the past considering i was getting rid of my phone that had a video application on it... so i filmed for the last time, with added excited that i am carrying about my holiday! my aim in this video was to "be american" just for laughs and practice!! its ok i am not crazy all the time i promise!! HAHAHAHA....

well this rest of the week just has to go fast i hope!! the weekend is fully packed with things to do and peeps to see on saturday, then going to the new church i'm attending on sunday morning which will be good to keep on meeting the people that go there and befriend new friends! then monday will come i will probably won't be able to sleep that night!!!! then my dad is taking me to the airport on tuesday!!!!!!! i can not believe i am actually going!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well the canadian money i have is so pretty and colourful, i don't want to spend it!! hehehe. its heaps pretty! So some friends have asked me am i going to take a book to read whenever i have the time to read! Got me thinking i could do that... now i am on an adventure to pick between 2 books!!!! maybe i will just face reality and know i won't have anytime to read books!

well this is day 6 in the count down!

WHHOOOOP WHOOOOOP!!!!

hey maybe hollywood will kinda befriend my talent from them watching this video????? ummm i always wanted to be an actor and a lawyer! maybe one of them could come true HAHAHA

ARK!!!

ARK!! I was totally inspired by watching the funniest movie "Evan Almighty". ARK is totally a life changing thing! a world changing thing! nothing to do with an ark (boat) but everything to do with simple ACTS of RANDOM KINDNESS!!

As i watched the news this morning and saw once again the news headlines on the internet, its very sad that nothing in the news is happy, joyful or uplifting! But its all sad, hateful and full of despair!

Even more personal, we may have people in our life or even our own that is sad and hurting and in pain and life less! So this all got me thinking today that this world needs LOVE a love of a saviour! BIG TIME!! And as Gods kids we can show the lost and hurting love! I am not talking about preaching at people the bible or even speaking words.

I am talking about that G'day at someone at the bus stop, that smile walking past someone on your daily jog in the morning! the encouragement you give, the blessings you give (whatever that might be)

Its all simple ACTS of RANDOM KINDNESS!

Another Act of random kindness can be on ourself! Life can get SO hard and so challenging at times! WE can tend to be hard on ourself ALOT! i know for a very long time i have been quite hard on my self! always focusing on the faults/flaws or whatever! But its important to see us who we really are! and bless ourself every now and then!

Cause you are really amazing! Something that has helped me is to write who i am in God and also my personality! what my values are and beliefs in life!

I have been told its good and Godly to look after yourself and reward/bless yourself!

So i am totally excited that i am heaps challenged to give out ARK's to people and to myself!

i love that verse.... the greatest love is that a friend lays down his life for another! now that is kindness hey!!!

Jesus' act of love has changed my life! and i believe can change many life's when they encoutner to love and mercy of God through His people! just think that smile you give someone could be the Jesus they see that day!

I am so excited to learn to love all people! my heart is totally for the lost and broken! if i make a small effect i still get to show a BIG LOVE (God)!

broken people

i have got a really great revelation today! I totally got to share it with you! its amazingly amazing!

So we all know someone, one person at least that is broken! either from there past or presnt and even future in some circumstances!

When people are broken completely they need alot of mending, love and healing!

Did you know that WE ALL are broken?!?!?!?! We are not perfect or complete cause if we were who would need/want Jesus! We are going from Glory to Glory, restoration to more restoration!

So really, now this is the biggest eye opener for me! really we can't look at people and judge them for having being broken!!!! because you yourself are not complete and perfect and fully restored! sure u may not have as much "stuff" to deal with but still there is something Jesus wants to fix and teach you inside your life!

Many times i have been judged for having broken parts in me! But now i see clearly i should not judge other people for their brokeness neither should people judge me for mine!

Its actually quite prideful to tear a broken person down because of there brokeness when the person tearing down they them self are broken too! Its exactly the same as judging someone of their sin and forgetting that we sin too!!

So i am really challenged to not feel bad for being broken as i deal with stuff and also not be critical of others when they reveal their brokeness!

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! MERCY MERCY MERCY MERCY!!! GRACE GRACE GRACE!!!!

Church Culture~!~

with long observation and a passion for the church world wide to be all that its meant to be and can be, i have noticed something that i have found! Its actually really subtle but very strong in churches~!~

We all know there is culture within our world today! along with culture comes diversity and with diversity comes stereotyping!

I have just studied what culture is and how diversity and stereotyping takes place within a culture~!~

Within churches i have experienced there is a culture going on that is unfortunately not a healthy one.

I see some churches are very closed off and unaware of what this world really is like! Its important to have an understanding of what the unsaved face in this world! We can never afford to turn our eyes off it! Because depression, anxiety, addiction, broken families (the list goes on) all this is real! and real and devastating to people who experience this!

But you know what! the people within church struggle with all this as well!

We hold the answer! and the answer is not to "get over it" but to go through it! this is what is lacking! compassion, nurture, support, mercy, grace, love understanding, pastoral care and so on!

time and time again, what i have experienced is that church crumbles and throws there hands up in the air not knowing what to do with all this brokenness! meanwhile these are the issues that the world lives and if we are meant to bring the unsaved in this is what they will bring with them in the church doors! Then because church doesn't know what to do, they try to resolve it all with "getting over it" conditional love because "i can't handle your problems" un-acceptance because "you are not in the place i want you to be".

To broken people all these are judgements on them! condemning remarks and totally not the heart of God!

Once i heard a christian speaker say "the church needs to know and acknowledge mental health issues" not to turn there face from it! AMEN to that!

So this culture within some churches is having to have it "all together" and having a glassy shinny exterior! and if you are not like that! well sorry i can not fully accept you!

I personally have struggled in churches with being real! the real me!

As i value being real and trying not to wear masks but just be real and honest! but i had fear going to church and being the real me which is broken and in pain!

broken people are broken! if you break something like a plate you can't just say to it, "get over it" and expect it to mend itself together!

same with Gods children! they are broken! and love, compassion, nurture and grace and patience is what will mend that brokenness! not the brutal words of expectation and judgement upon them!

To break this cycle of culture within some churches is possible! remember all things are possible! But We need to get the heart of God for people and for the individual! We also need to get in touch with a sacred romance from the father in Heaven! that sacred romance is the loving God! The God that weeps over His people who are hurting! the God who will take them on a journey of healing and continue to bring restoration just because He has chosen us and loves us!

the first break of a bad cycle is to firstly be aware of it and acknowledge it! but we need to want to face the truth to change! remember God can't give us what we don't want! if we don't really want Gods heart... sorry you are not going to get it! and playing with peoples lives is a risky thing! and need to start seeing it as a honour and not a number!!

new season with a new love!

HAPPY SPRING EVERYONE!!

Its September already and spring has sprung! oh so too exciting really!

Today is a perfect day to reflect on something that has really impacted on my life and probably loads of other peoples live's! It is the power of LOVE!

Today i expereinced something very different to LOVE! it was the oppisite of LOVE and that means it brings death, condemnation, shame and dissapointment!

I am a big fan of loving people and seeing constantly the good in them even when the bad shows most of the time! Its how God loves us really! We do some outrageous things sometimes but God see's the good in us and ALWAYS loves us!

my value in life is to appreciate and let people know i do appreciate them for who they are and what they do!

As i gaze into thought on how much unconditional love JESUS has for us, it blows me away that He accepts us for were we are at! and does not say come to me and then i will accept you when you are "normal" "complete" or "perfect"!

I know i have placed much expectation on people to be the way i want them to be! We need to seriously grasp that being like that, being non accepting being non compassionate, being non supportive and being insensitive to people can cause MUCH damage to that person!

The grace of God is really amazingly HUGE!! but its more so amazingly lovely and powerful! we are ALL on a journey and on different parts of that journey, God has given us the grace to accept us where we are and more grace to get where we have to go!

Today i have been greatly guttered by judgement and condemnation! I am learning through this that peoples opinions are just that! opinions judgements and critical talk that carries no grace no life and most of all no LOVE!

Jesus with His unconditional love His amazing grace and His powerful life for US over rides all the negativity!

I really want to encourage you that when you expereince the oppisite of what God truely is by others.... look to the truth! God's word counts and out weighs all human negativity!